Ranau has been an amazing place to relax, build routines and be carefree and part of that has been due to living by myself. I previously spent 3 weeks in KK living in a shared dorm so it was a welcome relief. However, a couple came to stay this evening and as nice as it is to socialise I've realised how important it is for me to have my own space in the evenings.
I think that's partly why I was a bit reluctant for my new friend Nelli to stay because having another person here disrupts my flow, and although I'm adaptable as a Virgo I'm still easily put off doing things I'd normally do. I kept thinking how awful I was for not wanting Nelli to stay, was I selfish? But she ended up canceling and moving on from Ranau.
I'm still trying to understand myself and this is one of the issues I need to examine closer. I have always been in relationships where I'd want to move in with a guy, but recently I just want to be on my own. I can really see now why my mum is OK living alone... I just want to do the same!
The day time is for socialising in my opinion, the evening is for winding down and sleeping. However, it seems that the night time is when people normally come alive. This was the case when I lived in the tree house in La Palma, I would be disturbed all night as I tried sleeping. Thankfully the couple didn't make too much noise, it was just the creaking of heavy footing on the floor boards that created a noise, but now I have to be conscious about what I do, especially using the Internet! (When I upload my YouTube videos I cannot do anything else and it gets switched off at night and whenever I leave, but these times are the best times for uploading my videos and photos)
I am not sure what my next destination is but I know that I'd like to be in a quiet place away from people. I guess I am introverted and like alone a time great deal.
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