Day 3 Watermelon Cleanse

I woke up early this morning, 5.30am! This is the first time in a while that I've woken up before the sunrise, mainly because I've had trouble sleeping so my body is out of sync with nature. I went down to the laundry machine and put my clothes in. I had tried the previous day to do washing but someone was using the machine and I decided it would be easier if I just do it first thing when the rest of civilisation is asleep! 

I opened a watermelon last night and still had over half left, so I ate that this morning. I'm not too happy about the quality of watermelon to be honest with you. The main reason I did this cleanse is because I had some awesome torpedo shaped melons and they were so sweet and delicious, but when i got to the market they only had big round ones. Nevermind. 

I've been having stomach ache again today so it must be the quality. At times I've thought I was eating floor cleaner because it has a slight soapy flavour. I'm definitely looking forward to eating something else, but I still have 7kg worth of watermelon to eat! It's a good job they don't go off quickly. They can sit there for a few days unless I really want to eat them. 

I've been going through You Can Heal Your Life again and working with the exercises in depth. I say affirmations first and last thing in the day and throughout the day I'll forgive myself or others. It's going really well. One of the affirmations is about money and a job. The other day I received an email for my recruitment agency saying they have a job and then today my friend sent an email telling me his company are looking for someone in Bangkok! Amazing that it's working immediately. I am hopeful for the future. 

I also started reading A New Earth by Eckhart Tolle and it is mind blowing already! I've been doing exercises from this book too regarding awareness of the ego. I will conquer the ego one day and I feel it will be sooner than I think! 

All in all today has been positive despite staying in for most of the day. It rained a lot, but it stopped by 5pm so I went to the park to walk and use my new found awareness. I stood watching birds flying and gliding against the lake and then I admired some dragon flies and flowers. Amazing. 

I am so grateful that I have been given two amazing books to read and that they're having such a great impact on my life. I appreciate nature and all that is created by our one mother and father. 

Day 2 Watermelon Cleanse

Well I disregarded everything I said yesterday, I stuffed myself once again despite not being hungry and I even had severe pain because of it. Will I ever learn?

I ate 2.5 watermelons totalling 7kg approximately.

I have experienced my kundalini energy flowing throughout my body since I went to bed last night. It's been wonderful, mainly staying in my stomach area but occasionally going up to my head and filling me with peace, calm and tranquility. Best day ever for that.

Day 1 Watermelon Cleanse

I had a terribly late night because I did not feel tired at all. In fact recently my sleeping patterns have been so erratic and it's possibly because I've been resting a lot during the day. 

I woke up after 8am and I drank 1.5 litres of water mixed with lime. I took myself off to the park for a brisk walk and I used some of the exercise machines. I figured I should be more active because I've been very lazy for nearly a month now. 

When I returned home it was after 10am and I wasn't hungry at all. So I waited another hour and still wasn't hungry. Strange. Perhaps it was the durian and then 100g of soaked cashews that I ate for dinner?! I started to think perhaps I wasn't ever going to get hungry so I just ate half a watermelon. 

It was probably the worst thing to do. I kept telling myself I should really wait for my body to tell me to eat but recently I've been eating for lack of something better to do (even though I could be doing so much!). Then I experienced severe stomach pain. I waited about 30 minutes before I ate the second half. Again I should have listened to my body. 

I waited around 3 hours before I started a second watermelon. I wasn't even hungry this time either but I ate it. 

I finished reading the book You Can Heal Your Life by Louise Hay and it was so insightful. I have used food throughout my life as comfort and I recognise it, but I still have trouble implementing a way to stop that affecting me now. However, after saying that I did decide that I would surrender my power to God whenever I got the urge to eat (but didn't actually need to eat) and I totally dismissed everything I had discussed with myself in the park!

Tomorrow is a new day and I will try harder. 

Watermelon heaven

I decided after eating around 6kg watermelon this morning and feeling clean that I would do 3 days of just watermelon. Of course today I had mangoes and durian as well but from tomorrow I'll be on just watermelon. 

What I hope to get from this is a cleaner, lighter feeling in my digestive system. I'm hoping it flushes out any food that's been in there for a few days and encourages toxins to leave my body. 

I hope that I will become more aware and conscious about my eating habits. Recently I just shove it in until it hurts (I am talking about food!). I also want to try to move more, so I will exercise before I eat even if it's just a stroll around the park. 

I want to be able to recognise when I'm full, so I hope to be aware of the signals in my body. Lately I've ignored them. 

Finally I want to try to assess my relationship with food and see where I'm having issues. 

So I guess I'll let you know how I get on over the next 3 days! I love watermelon and the seeds are also very tasty :D

What I've been eating recently

Well you may be shocked to hear my news. I broke my raw streak and this is how it started. 

For days I had been thinking that I was ready to do a juice cleanse and then try fasting again. So I had the mentality one day that if I'm doing a juice cleanse then I can eat whatever I want. That whatever I want turned into a bag of roasted and salted groundnuts (peanuts in the shell), a carton of soy milk, a warm chocolate cookie and ice cream plus fresh bread from a vegan bakery. 

How I loved every minute of it (apart from when I felt so bloated). The vegan bakery was awesome and their menu is beautiful! The bread tasted so sweet. But the only problem with my decision was the fact that I'd not eaten grains in over 1 year and my body didn't know what hit it. 

I did the juice cleanse for 2 days using store bought pasteurised juice and when I was supposed to shit for Thailand the only thing that came out of me were some hard stools. Surprisingly they didn't smell bad. 

I made the decision to visit Rasayana with my friend and I had a looser bowel movement, but since then I have only been having hard stools again because I have been on cooked juices again for 2 days. I wanted to experiment with using cooked juices and what I noticed was that my skin has gone even softer, but the whites in my eyes have gone yellow. I wasn't sure if that was down to the poor sleep, but then I've been feeling pains below my stomach so I am thinking that the cooked juices are no good at all and my body is telling me so! 

Yesterday I craved avocado so much and salad so I went and bought them. I think my body craved real food with real nutrients because the juices were just not providing the minerals and vitamins my body is used to. 

What I've learnt from this experience is that cooked juices are not ideal for me, I'm still not ready to give up food and I just want to eat the fruit that's in season, which is mangoes! So I actually filled up my basket and bag with mangoes yesterday (8kg in total) and I shall be eating them when they ripen. 

Borneo Blog :: morning thoughts and watermelons

I believe that your thoughts become your reality and the fact that I've given a bit too much thought to my recent loneliness has consequented in more loneliness! 

This morning I woke up and actually had thoughts of going to my neighbours bed to snuggle up to him just because I was missing the warmth of another person. I don't actually know his origin but my guesses are either Chinese or Japanese. We haven't really said more than hello to each other and so this thought of snuggling up to a stranger surprised me. I think I just liked the fantasy aspect of it in a non sexual way. 

In case you don't know I'm staying in a mixed dorm room. I will be here until 1st February and then I'm planning a few days in Ranau (durian central). So far I've been OK sharing dorms because despite my early bed time of 9pm I generally don't get woken up unless someone starts snoring really loudly (and they have the past 2 nights). I also find that I fall asleep more easily when I cuddle the extra pillow! 

Since 1 or 2 years ago I've been interested in investing in a body pillow, this allows you to sleep comfortably and is better than snuggling with a real person (heat for 1, bones for 2 and sweat for 3!). However, sometimes the cost can be extortionate so what I used to do at home was to use the extra pillows that were lying around the house (my dad has an obsession with buying lots of multiple products so there's always at least 5 of some item) and place them in a line on the bed under the covers. I found that my knees were more comfortable as well as my breasts! 

Moving on, I've been having a watermelon and coconut day today. In total I've had 2 coconuts, 2 red watermelon (4.5kg gross) and 2 yellow watermelon (5kg gross). I imagine I ate between 1500-2000 calories but the last watermelon didn't hit my stomach well and I've been experiencing paid for the last 10 minutes. I generally feel OK but I've experienced light headedness, swollen legs and a spaced out feeling today. 

I have walked about 5km in total and rested for the majority of the day. I think an early night is called for.

I've been looking into Gabriel Cousens this evening and whether his higher fat diet really does increase the connection to spirituality. I love fruit and how it feels in my system but I've read and been told that our brains need fat. Plus I've been thinking about Bali a lot today too with the gourmet raw and I'm wondering if I should go and try to live on it for a few weeks to see what differences I feel. There's just too much information out there I just don't know what to think anymore! 

And on that note I'm leaving this post here. My head is all over the place and I just need to rest. 

Much love xx

Kidney cleanse Thursday

Technically today should be my 3rd day of the colon cleanse, but due to other circumstances I am doing a kidney cleanse today with the final day of the colon cleanse tomorrow. 

During a kidney cleanse you drink freshly squeezed lemon juice and distilled water. Thankfully it is only done for 1 day. 

To prepare

1. Juice 20 lemons - 20oz
2. Mix 12oz lemon juice with 96oz water

Start the morning with half a pint of lemon juice, drank through a straw. I did this over a 5 minute period and I recommend drinking a lot of water beforehand. Then every hour drink the mixture of lemon juice and water. This is done for 12 hours in total.

If you do this cleanse after the colon cleanse then you will not poop much (or at all in my case), so if you need to go out for some time then you should be alright, as long as you take your drink with you! However, it is recommended that you stay at home and chill out. Let your body clean and heal.

This cleanse is good if you have kidney stones or eat the type of foods that put a lot of stress on your kidneys. The latter being the majority of the population; people who eat meat, dairy, salt, caffeine, etc.

Again I recommend changing to a raw vegan diet, your body will be much cleaner and you will have so many benefits, including softer glowing skin, stronger nails, more energy and vitality.

Get cleaning your insides and start a healthier diet!

Jennifer x